December 21, 2003
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Okay, maybe not everywhere, just here in this house. I’ve tried, I really have, but it just ain’t happening! The combination of low enthusiasm, virtually no money, an m.i.a. hubby and no time left to get it together has won out over the usual Christmas festivities. I kept waiting day after day for something. A spark, a glimmer, an iota of of cheer, NOTHING! I have bought exactly one thing, some yu-gi-oh cards for my god-daughters older bro. (She’s prob. going to get the only other thing I buy.) After Christmas, Bear and I are paying off the last of Allies‘ <(this tells some of the story) $300.00 doc bill, so that is her present as crappy as it is, and the platypus gets zip, nada, nothing. I’m blank, absolutely blank. I still haven’t got the tree or decorations up and my house is usually covered in lights that I put up myself. The inside is trimmed with yards and yards of garland and beautiful bows. I have the requisite nativity that I bought when the girls were babies. Christmas candy dishes, candle holders, stockings, you name it we’ve got it. Most of it is still in the attic. My dad and the platypus were in Wal-Mart (evil) and saw a 3 foot fiber optic tree for $9.50 and bought it for me. So we do have that. She also wrapped the presents that she brought home from school for everyone. Shoot, if it weren’t for Allie and the platypus there wouldn’t be anything out at all, but they did good by me and drug down some stuff. So now what?
Tonight we all go to Little Rock for the company Christmas party. Will that put me in the mood? I doubt it too, I think it may be to late. To me Christmas excitement comes not from the gifts that you get, but from all the attendant ceremonies that happen the month before. The decorating, music, general good cheer. The parties, cards being sent and recieved, the special cooking and baking. I love to buy for my friends and family, finding that special something that says this is for her. (or him) My one shopping trip this month and I didn’t even buy anything. I had a better time watching all the people and just looking around. Spending all day with the kids and their friends was all the good time I needed or wanted. So here we are. I don’t know why the usual just isn’t cutting it this year. The only thing I can think of doing is to keep going through the motions, maybe if I smile big and bright enough it will start to feel real. I guess the next few days will tell. I’ll keep you posted, and I sure hope I’m the last grinch you read today.
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You know, I went through the same thing last year. I’m usually a big Christmas person, leaving the tree up for almost 2 months, decorating up the wazoo, etc., etc. Last year I just didn’t have any inclination to do ANY of it. So I didn’t. No tree went up, no decorations except one Angel decoration made by a friend of mine that I plopped on my tv. That was it, and I didn’t miss any of it. This year, I was aching to put the tree up as soon as the cold weather started…probably because it had been 2 years since I’d done anything festive. Don’t worry about it too much..I’m sure your Christmas spirit will be back in full swing next year.
That’s kind of what I thought too.
Do your best….
If it makes you feel any better, I just baked my Christmas cookies this afternoon (usually I do this the weekend after Thanksgiving!).
And, we’ve decided NOT to put the BIG tree up. Instead, I’ve hung the stockings, purchased a few poinsettas, and draped some garland on the stair railing in the front hall…
Oh, and I purchased a large fir-tree-scented candle. At least it’s beginning to smell like CHRISTMAS…
Holiday Cheers!
If it weren’t for our kids I wouldn’t decorate a thing. How’s that for Christmas spirit.
I can so relate! I’ve been a Scrooge this year. I’ve just felt I’ve missed out on all the simple things that help get me in the Christmas mood. My tree is up, but most of my other decorations are still in storage. I think it has been hard for alot of people, including myself, this year to feel the Christmas spirit.
Maybe we all need a good old-fashioned no frills Little House on the Priarie Christmas. I’m like Charlie Brown, all this commercialism is killing Christmas for me.
Bah humbug!
Sandy
Take care of yourself …Merry christmas
Aaaaw, sorry to hear that. Well, I have no tree either, and just a few X-mas lights up. But I have no husband and kids, so that’s less of a worrie, etc. Well, I hope you’ll have some nice moments though! hugz, Moxxx