January 21, 2003
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WORK IN GENERAL
I tried to quit my job today. It didn’t work out. Somehow I ended up leaving with two weeks off and an agreement that if in two weeks I still felt the same then I could quit. I’m not going to say i’m 100% positive that I will quit in two weeks but right now i’m a lot like IVORY soap 99 and 44/100% sure instead of pure. (I haven’t been able to lay claim to the pure title in to many years to count)
WHAT DEPRESSES ME
I went to one of the sites I read. One of my favorites! She got more comments and e-props for saying she wasn’t going to blog today, than I have had all week. I feel like such a LOSER sometimes.
WHAT PLEASES ME
That when I poured out all my jealous feelings and hurt, and when I felt my worst, you all said some very nice things. Even though none of you have kids, so you can’t really know what it’s like till you do, you still have empathy and sympathy. I find that VERY cool.
WHAT REMINDS ME IT WILL BE OKAY
My husband, he grounds me in a better place. He reminds me what’s truly important. (that’s why I tried to quit my job today) Now if I could just get grounded, as in you’re grounded young lady. Maybe I would get some rest.
WHAT I FIND KIND OF COOL
For years people have thought I am younger than I really am. I give all the credit for that to the company I keep. You can think what you want about teenagers, I find they are some of the classiest people I know. With a lot more intelligence and creativity than the “adults” think. As for all out, guns blazing, “want me to kick their ass” support, there is really no one better than a teenager. I guess it’s all that pent up passion. And yes the, want me to kick their ass, should be in quotes. A very nice young man made that offer just the other day. CHIVALRY IS NOT DEAD, IT JUST MORPHED.
If a tree falls…..
If life were the way we wanted it, would we just get so greedy and unbearable to each other we would be miserable anyway…or would we finally have everything we wanted and so there would be no jealousy or anger toward our fellow man? If I have EVERYTHING I want and you have EVERYTHING you want, are we finally happy? Maybe it’s like THE MATRIX they tried perfect…whole crops were lost. Are we all searching for the same thing? When do you know the search is over? I found a couple of perfect……..now i’m looking for something else. When are we satisfied? If I am truly satisfied will I die that day?
So on this note….
Comments (8)
Isn’t Neo hot?
Eh, who cares about eprops!! Or is that just what someone says when they don’t get many? lol
I just read your last blog, it is lovely, the sentiments beautiful….I know every parent wants the best for their kids, it’s only natural.
You’re not gonna die, You’re gonna live forever
Hey Mom. That post looks too much like a tarot reading. Hey, ask Alli and Michael(sp?) if they want to come to Beltane. We’ll be going and I figured you guys would want early notice. Adios for now.
I always read it. I just sometimes don’t comment.
Btw, if you aren’t doing anything this weekend, we have lots of extra beds, you can come use one…
B/c we are having a movie fest and an anti-formal
You get 20 e props from me… there’s just not a button for it. you need to come spend the weekend here with me. this weekend. I’ve decided to stay here because helen is coming and Tim probably won’t be able to come see me anyway… so I’m staying here. But i still want to see you!!!! So you need to come and stay with me and brandy and jeremey and all those people you love. you can make a character and we’ll roleplay late into the night and sleep late into the day. I love you!!!!!
And the girls are having a DND Girls only campaign.
if you were suddenly truely happy, then what would you do? you are perfectly happy doing whatever it is you are already doing.. what fun is that? no new mystery, nothing to pass the time that we have but the same ol same ol.. i personally enjoy being unhappy occasionally, it makes me look forward to when i will be happy again. i guess not nessesarily unhappy, but uncontent. bc i am happy now, but not content with some of the other things going on. (i.e. our living situation, and the present grumpiness of the peoples around me.) But i know that it could always get worse or better. so whatever..