July 27, 2007
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The weather here has been gorgeous. Light breezes, big fluffy white clouds, temps in the middle 70s. Perfect! The Rhine is still very full, from the rain we had in the weeks leading up to our perfect weather week. It makes me wonder if it’s easier or harder to steer those huge barges with the river so high.
This hasn’t been a good month in the indigohaus…
My uncle was killed in a motorcycle accident in June, one month to the day of his death my aunt found out that she is terminal with cancer that we had all thought she had beaten long ago. I’m exhausted from the emotion and the tears.
I want to enjoy this beautiful day.
I can’t seem to make myself quit crying.
I want to be home.
I don’t want to leave.
I miss my family more than anyone can possibly understand.
How can a heart that is so full of grief still have room for all this loneliness?
Comments (4)
Oh nooooo…omg, I am so sorry for all of this crap that seems to be piling on all at once. Believe me, I KNOW the feeling of being so homesick and missing your family – although I am only 6 states away from mine, sometimes it seems like I am a million miles away. Especially when a crisis or tragedy strikes and I can’t be there with them, right then. Praying for you and thinking about you!
I’m SO sorry about your aunt and uncle.
Oh, Liz … I’m so sorry.
I wish there were some way you could go home for a visit. There’s absolutely no way? I know what it’s like to be a world away from family … and in a foreign country … and cooped up all day, but to be going through so much tragedy at the same time must be unbearably difficult. My heart aches for you, and I have absolutely no words of wisdom to impart. All I can do is say that you are in my thoughts and prayers, and I am just a phone call away … any time. Love you lots. 
still thinking of you …